A L I A H Z A I N I ;

Self Identity;

2011-12-24T01:12:00.004+08:00

Do you know

BANKSY?

Well, he's a British street artist who does really good street art.

However, he does not want to reveal his true identity.

Therefore, he ~~wears a paper bag~~ over his head whenever he paints.

A few of my favourites;

So much creativity and intelligence

Take me back to the start;

2011-12-19T14:11:00.017+08:00

It's been pretty long,

I'm here to post about Trinity's Young Leader's Summer School Program that i attended from the 4th December till 17th December ;)

One word, or heck, any words can't describe how it was. 2 weeks, 14 days. A lot of hours, a lot can happen. Of course these things, you start of not knowing anyone, or a lot of people, it gets pretty awkward and scary at first but you always try and work it out. If i were to explain every single thing, there's probably no end to it. Therefore, i'll just specify them.

Mentor Groups

We were separated into our mentor groups the first night we were there. My group's mentor was Maddison. She's the best! Some people don't really like her and find her scary. Well, my group loves her! ♥ We named our group M5 (Magical Marvelous Maddison's Men & Maidens). M5 had 3 ~~Malaysians~~ (Constance, Kean & Me), 4 Australians (Maddison, Linda, James & Howard), 1 Singaporean (Danielle) and 1 Vietnamese (Jack). We won first for Giant Game Night, 2nd for Amazing Race (though we were the first one to complete the race), probably 5th for Trivia Night and not sure what we placed for Karaoke Night. There are 12 groups altogether. We're all competing for the Leadership Cup, which consisted of 60% Leadership Presentation on environmental issues and remaining 40% from Giant Game Night, Karaoke Night, Trivia Night and Amazing Race with 10% from each category. They awarded M5 the Leadership Cup during the Valedictory Dinner. We were all so happy and proud. I still can't believe that we won =) Well yeah, sure, a lot of people said that M5's presentation was awesome, cause we had the court case concept, but seeing as how everyone worked really hard for their presentation while our group didn't really have much to do, i thought some groups would actually beat us. Nonetheless, Alhamdulillah, we're all so proud.

Leadership Project Meeting

M5 at Valedictory Dinner

M5; The best team ♥

L-R: Constance, Danielle, Maddison, Linda, Me, Howard, James, Kean and Jack ;)

Maddison; the best mentor ♥

Leadership Presentation

M5!

The Leadership Cup ;)

Classes

My elective world was ~~Creative World~~. I can tell you this, ~~Creative World~~ has the best bunch of people in the whole camp! No joke, hehe, i really love the whole group. It amazes me how different certain people can think and how their minds work. We had our classes together, it was good yeah, well maybe Persuasive World had great classes but ours were pretty cool, plus the people hehe. We bonded, and got to know each other more. Once they held a Giant Game Night where you fight against the mentor groups and also the worlds. Guess which world won? ~~Creative~~.

A lot of things they taught us made me realise some things as well as opened my eyes. There was this excursion to the ACMI (Australian Centre of the Moving Image). It was really cool but unfortunately i had only 20 minutes to spend there so i could only cover half of it. Melbourne's full of beautifully-designed buildings. We had an excursion and really look at the city in a different way.

Giant Game Night

Martial Arts Night

Karaoke Night

Roommate

When i reached Trinity, and to my room, i found out that my roommate was Ilsa. It was quite surprising cause Neesha knows her and apparently she came under KDU which was the same as Sara, Aleeza and Joyce. I didn't know Joyce before that though. Ilsa turns out to be super pretty and nice! And ugh she's so patient i tell you! She's da bomb, aww man i miss Ilsa ;(

When i came out of my room, Sabrina was downstairs with Sara and Aleeza. Turns out that Sabrina and Sara are roommates and Aleeza's room is right across from their room. Neesha got a Korean girl as her roommate. Little did we know that she's the modern Korean. Super pretty, and has really good English! Her name's Elizabeth. I guess Trinity's pretty good at matching us up? It seemed that it was fate of how we got out roommates. Thankfully, everyone got along with each other.

Super tall right haha

Ilsa Ameera, my awesome roommate ;)

Friends

I will always love the Malaysian gang! But haha our friends are from everywhere! Ok so like the Director asked us to be friends with people from 5 different countries by the time we're done. Let's see, i have friends from Singapore, Australia, Vietnam, Sri Lanka, Somali, Indonesia, Penang Malaysia? Heh i guess that counts. Maybe there's more but i can't really remember. Everyone's just so nice and friendly it feels really good! I became friends with those who i did not know at all before the camp, and became closer to those who i've already known.

There was a night when Neesha and i sneaked out and slept over at Sabrina and Sara's dorm. Hahah they were kinda pissed off with us in their room ♥ We were supposed to have a huge sleepover on the last night but don't know what happened to that! Though Neesha slept over in my room. I gained around 100 new friends within 2 weeks! Well, when you go to sleep, wake up, go to classes with everyone, every single day, it's hard not to know, hehe. I noticed how the first week it's the 'being friends' phase, and during the second week merely towards the end, it became the 'crushing' phase. Wonder what'll happen if it went on for a month haha.

Ilsa & Dominic

Neesha

Sabrina

Sara

Howard

Reuben

Irene

Joyce & Aleeza

Joyce & Ilsa

"Magical Moment"

Mornington Peninsula

After Bollywood Dancing

Derek, Neesha, Ruben, Sara, Ilsa, Joyce & Molly

Cultural Night

We gathered all the Malaysians together to perform for Cultural Night. It started of with a presentation by Daniel then the 'lah' segment by the Malaysian mentors Jon and Mel. After that was the fashion show by all the Malaysians and we ended it by singing the 1 Malaysia song ;) I'm quite proud cause before that, half of the Malaysians didn't even know the song and well yeah now they do! We had all the main races traditional clothing except for the baju melayu which was such a waste. Though a couple of Singaporeans wore baju melayu.

KDU & Sri Aman represent

The Most-Malaysian Non-Malaysian, Tony ;)

We all had our great times as well as rough times. However, i wanted YLSS 2011 to end with a good note, and it did ;) I truly miss everyone and it's sad knowing that nothing will ever be the same anymore =( I missed everyone so much after it ended that i started seeing random strangers as people from the camp. It was just sad. Almost everything i do or see reminds me of everything. I had a really really great time. So glad i went for it. Thank you Trinity, thank you everyone.

I don't have picture with everybody, so yeah

Busier than the bee;

2011-09-25T00:23:00.006+08:00

Credits: Azrianna ;)

Today i was asked this question,

"So what did you learn from PGL(Puteri Gunung Ledang)?"

I couldn't answer, all i said was,

"I've never really thought about that."

Well now that i've thunk a little, i'd like to share it.

Basically, it started off as a small thing. Not really noticed or cared by many. But i actually considered it, cause i remembered not auditioning for I Have A Dream in 2009 and i regretted. Plus, i had this theory of saying yes to every possible opportunity. At that time, we were busy with Sports Day, i figured that i didn't want to go after contemplating for quite a few days. In the end, i just wrote down my name and see whatever happens.

You can very well say that i was a ~~random~~ person to audition. The rest of them who did weren't very much close to me or even the same kind. Well yes i got it, without even knowing that i got one of the main characters. When it first started off, with Cheer 11 being so close, i got busy, and lazy to go to practices. Of course i went anyway. I didn't have actual friends to hang out with all the time, most of them were just for a while. Since i was working most of practice time, i didn't really care. I was even told in public once, that i was ~~"modern"~~ and not really like the other casts. They wanted to 'melayukan' me more. I got mad at that, confused too, but have to admit it's a partially true.

So you see, from there, i've learned to mix with the crowd, spread my wings a little, go out of my comfort zone for a while, try something new. Just waiting for the experience. Even if i wasn't in the other casts' cliques, i tried my best to blend in. However, i did not change myself. I also realised that Bahasa Malaysia is just as important as English. That as a Malaysian, we should love our country with what we have and make full use of it. Instead, sometimes we are just too blinded by the other countries in the world.

As months passed by, of course we grew closer, we grew into a family.

We had our inside jokes and it touched me of how much they cared for me and everyone else. They threw me somewhat a surprise party for my birthday ;) The people i used to hate and gossip about, became one of my very closest friends. So you see, it has changed the way i see some people. I've learned to work as a team, helping one another. I've also learned to act better, trying to put the pieces together, making it work.

We joined with the Orchestra as well as Choir for only a few days. Though we still managed to work it out. It's such a great feeling, when you're in the dressing room, someone dresses you up, another person will wear the mic for you, and another person will comb your hair. After that, you sit quietly till the crew calls you, and brings you on stage. Feeling like a boss haha. Once i really had to go to the bathroom but guests have already arrived so 5 people had to escort me to the toilet and made sure nobody saw me ;)

The first show was a success, Alhamdulillah. The night show on the other hand, the first half was a little down. Practically after each scene, at least one person cried cause they screwed up or something. We even got scolded by Pn Sabariah during the intermission. Well the show must go on, so we bucked up for the second half. I've learned to put up a good show. Also, being able to tell if something is good or not. We got standing ovations, a lot of raffles and screamings. The crowd loved it. Effort was clearly not wasted. This proves that Sri Aman girls are capable of doing just anything. Blinded by your background, your personality, your group of friends and everything else. I've learnt so much within these 3 great months. It was such an experience to remember.

Once again, i'd like to congratulate everyone for a job well done! As for audiences, thank you for giving your support. They're very much appreciated.

Was that enough?

Sing it for the world;

2011-08-27T22:26:00.008+08:00

There's a goodbye to every hello.

The school celebrated the retirement of an important teacher that has been in the school for 30 years. She taught my class. She taught Maths. She taught me. She always reminds me of my mom. Being the only other class she teaches, we decided to perform for her. So we did, we danced to her favourite song which is Downtown, and also Bunyi Guitar. I messed up at some parts, especially when my sunglasses flew out into the crowd ;\ Haha, all in all, it was okay i guess. We had only a week's practice. After that, i went on the stage to give her a present under our class and also PRS ;) Oh, PRS also had to line up at the line and give a salute.

4 Science Fasih ♥

Funny performance

Click here to watch ;)

Pn Yeap wasn't the only teacher we said Goodbye to that day. Our BM teacher that has been filling in for Pn Noraini while she's on labour leave, Cik Hazira, is flying off to UK soon. She's on summer break, and thought it'd be nice to earn some pocket money, so she taught at Sri Aman. She's really cool though, i like her. I mean, she studies Chemical Engineering in ~~University of Newcastle~~, England, her English writing skills are shown in her blog and yet she teaches us BM! She was from Sri Aman!

Meeting before the holidays was only an hour long o.0 We revealed our Baby Angels and Guardian Angels and i got to reveal and know mine ;) We bonded for a while before meeting ended and wished everyone "Happy Holidays" and "Selamat Hari Raya". Then i had to wait for Neesha and Aisyah who were following me to my house.

ShankariHannaAliah

Who's bringing Satay?

Hmmm

OH YES! SATAY AYAM! MUST HAVE!

WHAT? AREN'T YOU A VEGETARIAN?!

Yes i am, but satay ayam must have! That one is an exception!

HAHHAHAHAHHA WHAT EVEN?!

Pictures from Glee 3D;

Forever the coolest kidz hehe

D*Starz & Chee Wei ♥

Chence

We'll go dancing till the world ends

Rain on my parade;

2011-08-21T16:30:00.006+08:00

Watched Glee 3D with em teammates at CineMaxx just now. I think that's what they call it o.0 It's huge! Can fit a total of 555 people. The movie was good, yeah, not bad. I'll rate a 4.3 out of 5. Ermm, the characters were just really hot! Haha, especially the guys, personally, i couldn't stop smiling. I sounded so -_-" but ugh whatever. I've only watched Glee till the end of Season 1. Therefore, there were some parts that i was kinda confused about. Britney is such a good dancer! Like seriously! I was attracted to her skills!

Santana wore a green dress with a pink vest, along with fishnet stockings, knee-length socks and boots. It was so pretty when she was singing in that. Seriously, i couldn't stop looking at her. The outfit looked much prettier in the movie though.

Don't say hi to me. Fine.

Misunderstood;

2011-08-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

Middle of One Utama

School Field

Goal Post

School tables

Gallery stairs

MY ~~PLANKING~~ PICTURES!

I don't plank everywhere, ok.

Just whenever/wherever i feel like it.

That's how i roll~

Hartawan pahala;

2011-08-20T19:54:00.010+08:00

First Week of August,

1st day of Ramadhan started with the 1st day of August. Sri Aman also sat for the August text that week. I, for one, being busy with cheer and such, had no time to study. Sometimes even when i have time, i preferred to do something else. I'm such a last minute study person, sometimes too last minute till i actually study before the paper itself. Had Cheer AGM on Thursday. Eli got President ;) Congrats! I was nominated, but i had to turn it down cause of a few reasons. All us muslim students spent our recess in the surau doing Tadarus Al-Quran. Went back to Kuala Kangsar on Saturday to buka with PahMi. The first Sunday, all of our relatives from both sides came to our house for buka puasa. It was nice to see everyone =)

The Mosque my dad's donating to the people in kampung ;)

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY,

NURUL NEESHA BINTI ABDUL HAZIS!

o5o811

Just click this

You've been awesome, really. Thanks for everything

♥ ♥ ♥

Second Week of August,

Got back some of my papers. Some were disappointing, some were useless. But some were also quite surprising, and satisfying! Second Sunday on the other hand, further relatives from Mom's side came for buka. There were a lot of people in my house. Sadly, the number of people i actually knew was less than all my fingers. Two weeks of Ramadhan passed by so fast. Proud to say, i always performed my terawih. Full, too! =) Busy with Farewell preparations. Stressed, too. It was at Dish Deli, Mont Kiara on Saturday night. Alice in Wonderland themed. All in all, it was okay. Alhamdulillah.

Hanis

Nurul

Sarah

Third Week of August,

Slowly, people kept on getting their periods. I got lucky, for a while. I kept on praying i would get it after Raya. Wednesday was a holiday due to Nuzul Quran. I actually did a little of my homework that day! Whooo~ After that i went to Subang Parade/ Empire to buka with supposedly Gangland and GGland, but in the end, was only Aisyah, Kay and i. A lot of things happened there, i was a little stressed. Oh well, in the end it was good ;) Had Nando's!

On Friday when i came back from school, around 5+, i found out that i got my period. I was super stressed. I didn't even buka after that. I went to Bukit Jelutong to buka with Emira. It was really good seeing her again ;) Had special screening of Cars 2 at Curve, watched it with Neesha and Aisyah. We watched Zookeeper after Cars 2! Parents are out to buka with MB of Negeri Sembilan. Sister's out, I had to buka puasa with my maids only. They've gone to the surau, now i'm home alone ;\ I have special screening of Glee 3D with competitors of C3 tomorrow! Quite excited, hehe.

Meet Farah ;)

Maow

Lalalove this

Soon coming to the end of Ramadhan.

Oh Beth what can i do;

2011-08-04T18:29:00.013+08:00

Hi everyone!

I'm back again!

It's been ages since the last time i blogged.

I've always wanted to update, but guess i had no mood.

Even now, i actually have to update about a lot of stuff! But i probably won't.

So yeah.

Fifteenth July

Had PRS AGM. It was also the same time as the C3 rehearsal. I was truly thankful i could go to rehearsal after AGM, and still make it in time. If you didn't know, i ran for the post of President, Secretary as well as Treasurer. Just in case, you know, haha. They started off by electing the President. I was running against my closest friends; Mai, Elynna and Azraa. It was scary. I was scared through out the whole day. During last period, which was ~~Physics~~, i was literally shaking. I really wanted that post. Really. But i also know that my friends who ran for it wanted it as well. I knew that, if i didn't get it, it would affect my performance during rehearsal and C3, so i fought for it.

Well enough, i got elected as the PRS President of 2011/2012, with Azraa on my side as my Vice. Alhamdulillah. Turned out, Amalina was the only one who ran for Secretary, so she got it. Both Nads were running against each other for Treasurer, and Nad Ros won. Congratulations to everyone! You see, both Amalina and Nad are in my class, it's really easy if we want to talk about anything, but we'd wish Azraa was there too, all the time. Mai got Program Coordinator and Elynna got President for Kelab Kerjaya, which so happens to be under PRS.

I felt bad that i had to leave meeting early, and rush to OU. When i reached, i received the news that Lissa, my captain, wasn't coming or even performing. You could just imagine how my reaction was. Seemed that everyone already panicked and cried before i came, so yeah. I had trust in her, though, i knew she'd come, for sure. Good enough, she came crying about some time later. Everyone was just seriously relieved.

Rehearsal was really good, we did our full routine, and everything was good. Right after that, we had to rush off to Neesha's house, to get ready for Kaeshini's 16th Party! Even the getting ready part was fun, yeah with em Neesha, Lissa and Karyna. Sad that Hui Wei couldn't join us! While we were there, the rest of D*Starz were at Navini's house, cause everyone slept over there. We went to the party, and at first it was kinda awkward and all, cause we were the only Sri Amanians there. Oh, with Amalina too! Then came Aisyah, and Nad Ramli. But then the moment we started dancing on the dance floor, everything was alright, it was good. It felt awesome to really dance after some time. I knew i had to save my energy for the competition the next day, but i still went on and on. It was a good party, yeah. Haha we had goals of making at least 2 friends that night, yeah i think everyone succeeded. I made more, actually, hehe.

Neesha's dad fetched us back to their house, then we took our things and headed to Navini's. It was around 1 when we arrived, they were all still awake -_-" After washing up and whatnot, i ended up sleeping at 2, and woke up at 5.

Sixteenth July

Everyone got ready, and all of us squeezed into Navini's car, and went to OU. It was Charm Cheerleading Championships! Everyone seemed hyper and happy. Everyone felt good, yeah. We were the last one to go under our category. Yes, we gave everything. Yes, everything hit. Yes, we were so proud, and so were our coaches. Everything was just really nice. So far the scores on that day, Calyx was leading, followed by Cyrens, then Rayvens and tied at 4th and 5th were D*Starz and Muriel. We were really happy cause like, Muriel had a lot of difficult stuff! Anyway, since it's in OU, we could walk around a lot, and there are a lot of restaurants to choose from. Some went back to Navini's house. Me, on the other hand, i had to go back to my house, my bed. I think i slept at like what, 9?

Seventeen July

Woke up early and went to OU. Second day of competition, i felt a little nervous. Though i was a little late, of course a lot of other people came later. Izaz came how many hours late. She claimed to have a flat tire. Not sure if it's true. Second day, on the other hand, schedule was reversed. So we were the first team to compete. We felt a little nervous, and everyone was tired and stuff. Sad to say, we failed a few things. A lot of people cried after that. Even if they didn't cry, their face was as if someone died. The good thing bout Day 2 was that Gangland + Acap was there! We finally had a full Gangland outing again, woohoo! Though i really want another one. We had lunch at Nando's, then oh! Karyna and i ~~planked~~ in the middle of OU while everyone was sitting at Waffle World. After that we went to Cinnabon/ Aunty Anne's. Then McDonalds. Haha typical Gangland outing ♥ They announced the results, Cyrens won first, followed by Calyx and then Rayvens. Meanwhile All Boys was Zodiac, Mickeymitez then Calyx. Congratulations to everyone. We found out D*Starz got 4th, and we were really happy! Haha, but yeah. Hayden was there, wearing D*Starz supporter shirt wohooo! I went back with Neesha, we stopped by Mamak first, then to her house. By the time i reached home it was kinda late already. As usual, the next day, 3/4 of the team members will be absent and i will be at school.

Finally ♥

Just testing the vacuum, you know.

Eighteenth till TwentySecond July

Had practices during school hours, but they were tiring, and kinda different. Had our last practice with coach as D*Starz '11 team. It was sad. Did i mention that i am in Teater Puteri Gunung Ledang? So yeah, Cheer Season's over, now i gotta stayback everyday for PGL. Had my first PRS meeting ;) It went well, i'm happy! Friday, we sent the boys back to ~~Melbourne~~ ;(

One of the 2 team shirts City U sponsored

Last practice with D*Starz '11 ;(

Faris left a little going-away present

TwentyThird July

I wanted to rest to get ready for Cheer 11 the next day. Yeah, i woke up late, watched a movie after another, and other things. Felt good! Packed my stuff and went to the salon to do my hair. I even used the GPS and arrived at the place, though i still couldn't find the salon. Quite stressed when i found it. Eh whatever, then i just did my hair, it was so cool ok! Whole of D*Starz were there, making noise as usual. After that we headed to Jemari. Wohoo, people keep on talking bout it, finally i got to try it! It was ok though, not bad. Karyna and i belanja-ed all of them heheh. Then we went to Tutti Frutti for dessert and lepak-ed there while watching the Singapore-Malaysia match. It was really fun hanging out with everyone. Awwhh, i really miss that night. We kept on cheering for Malaysia, and we took a whole spot at TF. Spent a few hours there, and it starts getting more quiet when people started to leave. That was like, our last real bonding session with everyone ;( Went to Navini's house to sleepover again, alright!

They prank called, and skyped and a lot of other things when yeah, competition's the next day. The night was just really funny la haiyoo

At Tutti Frutti. Malaysia Boleh!

TwentyFourthJuly

The day has arrived. We kinda reached school late. Still had to practice full routine at least once before leaving for Bukit Jalil. We went with our hair not done properly and no make up. Managed to do everything that morning. Had fun in the morning though. Sadly, our supporters were really sad. They were either everywhere, or not there, or not wearing supporter shirt. Haihh, i think you can actually count the number of people there. Watched the other teams, and supported them, yeah. We were a little nervous before our turn, but still felt that really great vibe. I wasn't worried about the lib before this. But somehow that day, that was the only thing i was worried about. I felt really pressured, i even wanted to cry before our turn. The moment we stepped on the mat, we knew we had to do it right. Not turning back, as soon as the song started, i knew i couldn't leave until the end, meaning i had to hit every single thing, and leave the mat with a proud smile. I wouldn't say it was the best we've every done, cause honestly, C3's was better. However, we still managed to hit a perfect routine which was our goal in the very first place! During the lib, Lissa had a little trouble up there, but she stuck it. Proudest moment was that she still managed to twist ;) Had a little trouble during the dance part, sad, cause that's supposedly our strongest part. The most satisfying part of the routine, for me, was the pyramid, hands down. I loved it so freaking much! There was actually this part when i almost gave up, but i scolded myself and fought for it haha. I used to be so scared of it, i kept on telling myself that i want to feel super confident before the pyramid, and guess what? Exactly before Putri jumped on Hui Wei and i, i told myself, "Eh, pfft, i can so hit this pyramid". It felt super good, seriously. I wanted to say the ending "YEAH!" with full pride, so yeah i did.

Everyone was rather happy and proud with everyone. Lissa came to me crying, i just hugged her and told her that i was very proud that she didn't fall and she actually twisted. We were then sent to the SilkyGirl Make Up room for our photoshoot. Watched the video, and then Chee Wei came. We all looked at him in silence, then he screamed of excitement and we followed hehehe. You know what? He cried for us. After our performance, he cried, for the very right reason ;) D*Starz were all gathered together during results, we were praying for Best Make Up. Yes, we did win that award, hehe, Alhamdulillah. The sweet part was that, practically the whole stadium was shouting our name for the award. Anyway, Muriel won 4th runner-up, we still had a little hope since we beat them during C3. Calyx got 3rd runner up and that was really surprising! They got a lot of infractions i guess. Titans were really good, and they won 2nd runner up! Last but not least, probably the most unexpected one, newcomer Rayvens from Sri KL for 1st runner up! Of course, Cyrens as National champion. Sri KL lost their ~~Best Supporter~~ award to SMK DJ but two top national awards are so much better than ~~Best Supporter~~. For All Boys, Zodiac for 3rd, Vulcanz for 2nd and Mickeymitez for Champion. Both champion teams performed once more. After that, we packed our things, and went around to take pictures with everyone. Cheer 11 was over, just like that.

D*Starz '11 has come a long way, yes we did. We have gotten so close with everybody that it hurts not seeing each other so often anymore ;\ There's gonna be a new team soon, definitely won't be the same, especially since i'm not gonna be in it ;( I miss everyone, really. We found out that we got 8th, and 1 point away from Vulcanz. Top 10! We pulled it off, we really did, i'm so proud of everyone! This is a victory story, yes it is. If we can, anyone who is anyone, will definitely can too.

Fire up & scream, Sri Aman, go team!

D*Starz & B*Starz '11

Pyramid ;)

My mom with my banner

Em famous ♥

TwentyFifth till TwentyNinthJuly

Had to put my head in the game for PRS Installation. Stayed back for PGL only instead of everything else ;( Had an interclass Frisbee competition that went kinda tense. I was fasting that day, and i still ran around, and got pissed off with the opposing team.

ThirtiethJuly

Woke up in the morning and went to school for Installation! That was the very first event i organized. I prayed that everything will turn out fine, well, despite the number of guests and Datin Mary's early arrival, everything else was pretty good. Alhamdulillah. I got to meet the BOD's of other schools! At first it was kinda awkward and all but after that it got better. Guess everyone had fun =)

With em seniors ;)

Changed in school, and headed straight to Curve to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 with Neesha. Wasted time at MPH before that, charging our phone, till the guy scolded us hmpphh o.0 The 180 minutes movie was awesome and breathtaking and exciting and whoooo! It was good yeah, really. Even though during some parts of the movie i actually criticized a little here and there hehe. After the movie ended, we went to pray, and Ikano and then it was almost time to buka and we decided to eat at TGIF.

NeeshaWaiterGanglandAliah

How many, miss?

Smoking or non-smoking?

Inside please

Okay, please wait by the bar.

Alright. *went in and straight to find my own table*

What are you doing? The waiter said to sit by the bar

Neesha, it's almost buka time. Look! got table there!

Haa? Okaayyy *walks to table*

SURPRISEEEEE! *the table next to it*

Yeah, we had a surprise party/dinner for Neesha hehe. She loved it, so awww. It was also for Karyna. It was a pretty confusing party if you ask me. They were asked to stand on the chair and do stuff. They sang the failed SA song, then changed to our 'routine' song. Hahha, glad they liked it ;) I had my ~~Friday's Cheeseburger~~ oh girll~ goodness! Then practically everyone had to go back except for Pik Leng, Karyna and i. Went around The Street trying to find something below RM 15 to match the 3 of us but haha failed a bit. I had to go after that. Haihh, so yeah. It was a really good day, Alhamdulillah.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY,

MONICA CHEN WENG LAM!

3oo711

You are one of the juniors i like, heh lucky! You blend in so well~ And you're like so good at dancing and you're so funny! Haha. I think i miss you hahah ;)

*She's the one in white*

ThirtyFirstJuly

Went to my Grandma's house for a family gathering before Ramadhan starts. I saw my cousins that i went to Makkah with, sadly they didn't say a single word to me. Hmpphh, well the last time i saw them was in March anyway. Started studying -_-" Fell asleep on my grandma's couch, then went home. First night for terawih! I thought my dad was kidding when he said we were gonna do 20 rakaat. So after 8 when i got ready to go, my mom was all "Where are you going?" So yeah, i got grumpy and tired after that, i didn't want to go to school the next day. i had to have a lot of reasons and go through a lot for them to actually let me miss one day of school.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY,

KARYNA ILLIYANA SUHAIMI!

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You are so, Karyna! One and only! Hahha, we've known each other since Form 1 o.0 You're super good at everything you do, really! Proud to call you my friend and captain ;) ♥

*She's the middle one*

Sorry, but both of the birthday pictures have both of the birthday girls in it, haha get it?

So that's how my July went

What we save, saves us;

2011-06-18T19:17:00.005+08:00

Swing in Bandung

I love this headband ok haha

Am i cool yet?

I really wanted to blog about a few stuff, but i got lazy. Not gonna blog about what i wanted anymore. Just gonna write whatever's on my mind right now. Haha k.

So i went to Curve for the SOX All-Stars Drum and Dance competition to support Baby Starz as well as all the other good teams. They were the first to go, and they were good. They smiled the whole way, showed the judges their cuteness, and put on a good opening. I stayed to watch a few drum and dance, then went to Ikea with Eli, Intan and Nad. After that, i went to find for Lissa, Karyna and Hui Wei. But then a while after that Hui Wei went somewhere else, so majority of the time it was just Lissa, Karyna and i walking around. Out of all the clubs they invented, and i didn't want to be a part of any of it, i decided to make another club of just us three, haha the Pho Hoa Club woohooo, if you don't know what that means, then YES! Heheh, secret secret.

When we checked out SOX again, we found out that Baby Starz didn't get into the Top 6 ;( They got number 8 instead. I felt really sad/bad that they were sad and disappointed ;\ I mean like, they're the babies ok! Awww, aiyoo so sad. I went back at 3. Didn't stay for the results and all. Watched Something Borrowed. Ugh, it's been long since i've done a movie review. Mm, i'll do whenever i feel like doing. Gonna accompany my mom to a kenduri tonight. And i don't think i can watch another movie after that since i have like skating at 6 am tomorrow again ;(

Haha this post is so retarded

Oh, these times are hard;

2011-06-05T21:13:00.008+08:00

9 days of holidays have gone. Only 7 more to go.

After NYD, D*Starz had so much spirit like never before, practices were so fun and everyone achieved something and we made the coaches proud it was really something. Then came Cheer Camp, gotta admit, i didn't feel that good about it. I was super stressed on the first day. Do you know how many injuries i got? A lot okay. Just, a lot. From Putri punching my mouth sideways so my braces tore my lower lip to Demi falling and cracked my thumb so it was sprained. I got 16 bruised on my arms only, on the first day. Second day, 20. Today, 18. Some of them disappeared after a day or two -_-" Oh, Neesha, Karyna, Hui Wei, Demi, Wenli and i followed Navini from camp. Mm, all 7 of us squeezed in the back seat laa on a Friday hahah guess we ain't got a choice like Rebecca Black yo.

Anyhow, second day was definitely better. Though it got kinda emotional for the team, and certain people, it really made us think. Since the arrangement usually goes from good then better to best. Yeah, the third and last day of camp was the best for us. Everyone was just really hyper and spirited. Had last minute changes on the routine, but everything worked. A few times when we did and everything went up good, but there were also quite stressful times, but we fought it alright. Soon, the moment on the mat; competition time. I vowed to do my best and hit every single thing perfectly. Instead, i couldn't fight myself. I didn't push up to extension for stunts, cheer stunt sequence fell, poms got mixed up and first part of pyramid failed. The moment i exited the mat, i was super angry at myself. It looked like i was crying, but i wasn't. It was just my really really angry and disappointed expression plus the sweat. Really, i'm not proud of what i've done. People keep telling me i did my best. I say no, i've done better, and best comes after that, so obviously what i've executed on the mat wasn't even close to perfect. I didn't achieve my goals, i let failure take over me. I don't think i've ever been this angry at myself before. I feel super useless. Even during dance, the part with the least problem, i couldn't concentrate cause i was too caught up with the tosses and pyramid that comes afterwards.

Obviously, i had no mood for the closing. They had all the Best ____ Award. D*Starz asked me to go for Best Dancer Category, so fine whatever i went. I thought i'd actually do better. Haha, i was so blank when i stood up. During the individual dancing, i don't even know how many times i rolled on the floor, and to see the look on Coach's face after i got up, haha freaking embarrassing la weyh. When everybody danced together, i didn't even know what i was doing, too much pressure until i started doing really stupid dance moves that made D*Starz laugh like jasdhaksdh. After camp ended, we had to bring home the mats. My sister forgot to bring the Alphard, so Karyna had to bring home 4 mats. Sorry ;\ But fitting in the mats was really funny hahah.

There were a lot of funny moments during cheer camp as well. I'll just think of that whenever i feel like crying about haihh ok yeah. Like our front roll bunkbeds routine haha it's so cool and funny i kept on playing it again and again. It's on my profile if you want to see. Camp was something, yeah, it was. Didn't exactly get to make new friends but they're all familiar faces to smile at next time.

I asked my parents to guess the number of bruises i have on my arms only, and my mom wanted me to quit cheer. She thinks she can just pull me out of the team like that? Ok no way just no. My dad was also being tough when i asked him for Koffee's spa money. Gosh, nobody wants me to be happy anymore. Somehow, i feel so mean tonight. Oh well, what to do.

Let's focus on the bright side of cheer, since cheerleaders are supposed to be forever happy, as well as the future. For one, now i get it when the coaches and teachers say we're not really acting like a team, as one. Yeah, but during camp it got better so woohoo! =) D*Starz has got to keep their game on, everybody has got to switch their focus on, and i have definitely got to step up my game.

It's

YOU

vs.

EVERYTHINGELSE

Maybe it's not our weekend, but it's gonna be our year

Everybody take the fall;

2011-05-29T18:25:00.004+08:00

Sister

The toss that almost didn't happen ;)

National Youth Day

was

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I had a really good feeling bout it the night before. That morning, i was the last one to reach school, i was like half an hour late. Sorry guys ;\ We were then also kinda late to reach Putrajaya. Therefore, we kinda rushed for everything. It was all okay in the end though, cause we were the last to perform.

We didn't exactly watch the other teams perform. We kept our focus. Soon, it was our turn, we ran onto the mat with full spirits, and gave our best shot. I gotta admit, there were little parts here and there where my stunt almost failed. But somehow or rather, everyone managed to stick it and didn't give up. All of us, in fact, didn't give up. I was really proud of them, both of my flyers. Heck, i was super proud of everyone. Every single stunt went up, both pyramids went up. There were neither major falls nor expressions of lost hope.

We made the captains proud.

We made the coaches proud.

We made the teachers proud.

Best of all, we made ourselves proud,

and it wasn't disappointing.

Maybe you might not know our inside story. But we do, we lived it. That's why the performance was such a big deal to us. Yeah, i was a tad bit sad that we didn't win, but who cares? We have done something right, and that's what matters. Besides, we didn't exactly get a bad placing, i mean, 6th place is rather good right? However, congratulations to Rayvens, who managed to get 3rd placing, Calyx for 2nd and Stompers as Champion. I'm sure you guys deserved it well.

D*Starz is so happy at the moment. I, personally can't wait for the next practice to see everyone and for camp as well! It's gonna be so fun! Though usually when i dream far, it doesn't come true, so i might just have to think the opposite. Haha okay.

D*Starz '11

Oh! I was told the night before that i wasn't emcee-ing for Teacher's Day anymore. So i thought, why not go to Pyramid for my test? Since i was having quite a problem with it? I felt bad for missing the last day of school, and also Teacher's Day, but i had a reason. So i took my test, yes i passed. But i still feel a little guilty cause i actually could've failed. Oh well, what's done is done. I've gone to a new level ;) My coach just texted me my class schedule. Sad to say, most of them are clashing with my other plans. I hope she doesn't get too mad. She's already annoyed with the fact that i'm always busy.

Meanwhile, i hope to have a good school break. To be able to return to school with full optimism and goals.

Feels weird being so free

Step into the fantasy;

2011-05-27T00:12:00.004+08:00

THE ART OF GETTING BY

Kay posted this video on my wall, at first i thought it was a spam. But then suddenly Hanan posted saying something bout the video as well, which got me knowing roughly what it was about. FREDDIE HIGHMORE! After quite some time, i can't believe i still get excited over him. I was literally hyperventilating throughout the whole trailer, and even before it started. Do you know how many times i've actually watched it? I guess i'm gonna watch it again now, since i've opened the link to get the embed.

He's super super hot there, not forgetting that he totally used his ~~American accent~~, and it was shot in New York. Co-starring Emma Roberts. Trailer looks real good too, what's not to love?

Bieber and Selena in Hawaii.

I bet this was their post-tour vacation. They stopped at Victoria's Secret to get everything before Hawaii okay, so yeahh. But whatever, look at his body. Just, look. Hair too, as long as i don't see his face, it's fine.

Someday

The lies you tell;

2011-05-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

Mid Terms are over, finally. Results aren't so good. Some were worse, some were better.

Now just a few days left to National Youth Day, my concentration is there.

Each week, we make at least ~~one person mad~~.

Each week, we make the ~~same mistake~~.

Each week, we ~~tell ourselves such lies~~.

It's really sweet that the captains, coaches and teachers believe that we can pull it off. I personally feel guilty for not really achieving it. Everybody believes in us, but us. What is with all the negativity behind the positivity?

Watching back last year's state about this time of the year, the difference is just huge. Weren't we supposed to fight for a higher placing?

This is really sad. In a team, it is never one's fault. When the routine isn't perfect because of a silly mistake, it gives effect on the whole team title, not the individual herself.

I think all the lecturing has lowered our self-esteem somehow. Yes, it is to make us learn, but at the same time, the smiles that used to show excitement and love for the sport are slowly fading. I'm not saying that we shouldn't be scolded at all. Just that, a balance of everything would be really great.

We have been told many times to wake up already. Are we still sleeping, dreaming or half-asleep?

Whom is it to blame for?

The school? The new headmistress? The weather?

Of course not.

This is even to remind myself.

Apart from that, i'm joining Skate Malaysia, which is from the 30th June till 3rd of July. As you know, 30th June is my Sports Day. However, exactly a week after Skate Malaysia is Cheer 11. I've filled the forms, it was scary. I don't know how i'll manage. But i will, i always do, at least i think so. InsyaAllah, Amin.

I've already told my coach that i have an event this Saturday, therefore won't be able to take the test. Just now, i guess she forgot about it and told me i had to take my test on Saturday. She was told that Saturday was the deadline. I wanted to take my test on Sunday. I seriously felt like crying at that very moment.

My school holiday wouldn't probably even be a holiday. My mom has to force me to go to Bali. They are even going based on my timetable. I gotta go to school for Cheer and Emerald Green. Gotta go to the rink to practice. Which reminds me, one of my competitor came up to me and told me that she was my competition. What even. Gone every weekend. D*Starz has Cheer Camp along with Cyrens, Rayvens, Vulcanz All-Girls, Zodiac All-Boys and Zodiac All-Girls.

Got my cheer uniform today ;) Now i have one of B*Starz and D*Starz's each. Complete. Though, after last year during SOX where they borrowed my uniform and i only got back my skirt, ugh -_-" And oh, aren't you guys proud? Emerald Green got 1st for Sukantara, and now 2nd placing overall, with 99 marks away from Ruby Red.

That is all.

Nothing at all;

2011-05-01T20:12:00.007+08:00

MEET,

ADAM IMTIYAZ.

He was in the Justin Bieber Flashmob. He's 12. He can sing and dance well. He's got swag, seriously. Everyone in the flashmob loved him, including me. He's really got style when he sings. Just thought that everybody should know bout him. During the flashmob, i actually thought that he was my version of Justin Bieber. Better than the real JB himself. Eh, with this video, who knows? He might really be, the next, Justin Bieber.

Almost already like a superstar

"I sing, dance, and most importantly, i'm full of SWAG!"

Accused;

2011-04-23T19:21:00.002+08:00

MY NEXT ULTIMATE POWER SONG

Who says you're not star potential,
Who says you're not presidential,
Who says you can't be in movies,
Listen to me, listen to me,
Who says you don't pass the test,
Who says you can't be the best.
Who said,
Who said,
Would you tell me who said that,

But then right, she looks like that, of course la she can say all that

-_-"

Anyhow, i'm really starting to feel it yeh~

No, not a single evidence

Drowned without your love;

2011-04-22T22:35:00.007+08:00

Justin Bieber and Selena Gomez upon their arrival at KLIA

Opening

One Less Lonely Girl

Joel Madden

Acoustic

Kuala Lumpur, Thursday- Had a panic freaking out uneasy feeling when the school bell rang. Probably meant that something bad was gonna happen either during Cheer, or Bieber. Whichsoever, i didn't want anything to happen.

Cheer was rather slow, and quite painful. I almost cracked my bones, literally. Certain times were really funny, but through it out all, we didn't give our best, again. The coaches scolded us, again. To top it off, he actually ~~walked away~~ from us.

Since Cheer dragged on till like 5.20, everyone quickly changed and got ready. We went into the car around 5.30-5.40. Started our journey to Bieber. Well well, i forgot to think about the traffic. Plus, it was raining heavily. We were stuck in the jam for 2 hours and a half, and still had a long way to go. Halfway along, we even saw a man taking a pee at the side of the road. We got restless, and finally decided to walk all the way. The walk was around 15-20 minutes, when we finally arrived at Stadium Merdeka at 8.30. We separated our ways, and Karyna, Neesha and i were finding for Hanna and Aisyah since they were supposed to save seats for us. Cause we were late, people were already sitting there. It was really hot and sweaty too, so we decided to sit upstairs where not a lot of people were, so we'd get some air.

Bieber finally came on, everyone was overexcited. I gotta admit though, i was enjoying singing along to his songs, but somehow i felt empty inside. This might've been the same feeling for every other concert though. I was really glad that i knew all of the songs. Not exactly all of the words, but at least i wasn't blur. Sadly, i somehow felt like he wasn't truly connecting to the crowd. We were even more sad, when he just ended it, with "I love you guys" and turned to walk away, after only an hour and a half of performance. After the concert, we went to see Hanna and Aisyah. They then mentioned that when they were standing up, there were actually space there. It was unfair how they got to be so close, with everyone and able to see him properly. From our place, he was barely noticeable, had to face the screen most of the time. Such regret, but oh well.

Another one of my 'feelings' and interpretation, that he didn't exactly love us, actually more towards complaining about the weather. Went on Twitter today, and even till now, my timeline can't stop mentioning his name. I was a little crazy before the concert, but you guys gotta relax. I mean, some of the people who used to hate him terribly, suddenly liked him? There ought to be something wrong somewhere. And like, come on guys, not exactly asking you to stop harassing him completely, but just turn it down a little. I bet even the man himself is a little annoyed.

I was really excited when i saw the picture of him and the girlfriend together, really wanting her to perform with him. But no, she didn't come out, and all i heard about her were not really good things. Don't mind that much, i still like her. Them. Despite the disappointment, the singer had a surprise for us, how sweet. It was Joel Madden from Good Charlotte! He sang ~~Dance Floor Anthem~~ for us ;) I looked forward to Justin dancing, and his dancers. But from where i was, you can't see them properly. Haihhh.

Personally i enjoyed Never Say Never, Pray and Baby the most. The part when he sang Baby Got Back was priceless and cute to the power of 9345986. All in all, it was a good show. Difficult to be summarized within one sentence. I was awfully influenced with the last part of the show, the part where i realised the disappointments, till i thought about it more that the whole of the concert itself. Mira even said that cause everyone seems to be overly excited for the concert with each other, till even the performance itself seems to be less than expected. Which was exactly how i felt.

Concert ended at 10.30. We came out, walked, waited for people, then i had to walk up and down the hill, to find for my car. By the time it was done, it was nearly 11.30. Thank goodness the road wasn't jammed. I reached home close to 12. My mom got mad at me, cause i came home late. I seriously don't know why she's suddenly so mad at everything i do. It was a concert, did you really expect me to come home at 10 or something?

I'd rather be with my friends whom i care of and care for me, rather than in this empty house full of hatred.

Let me put this in your ear;

2011-04-16T22:14:00.007+08:00

Children are crying,

soldiers are dying.

Some people don't have a home.

Ok hi, i planned on blogging, but i totally forget about the things i wanted to say. Probably cause i'm not exactly emo right now. Aite.

CIMORELLI!

I can't customize the video with Youtube giving out the embed like that only ;(

It's been a less hectic week yet annoying. I don't even know why. Somehow ~~everyone was just really annoying~~. I didn't come online on the first 2 days of the week, and i felt really healthy, school wise.

Career Day was on Wednesday. I got kinda excited at first, cause every year they would ask me how old i was, and when i say like, "Form 3", they'll be all like, "Oh, come back next year lah". I mean, seriously what's the point then. Just give us informations gosh is that even so difficult. This year, on the other hand, every college booth accepted my age. Hehe. I was kinda in love with a few college choices, as well as subject opportunities. I easily picked what i wanted as if it was like choosing clubs or societies. Not easy though, i mean, i remember being so sure about what i wanted to do, just a few years back. As you grow closer to that particular age, you find that you don't really know about your future. Some might be unfortunate enough, not to own a future.

Choral Speaking was on Thursday. My English class consists of 21 people, only. On that day itself, a total of 15 people were present. Whereas, Pure Science classes all had 30+. I'm quite sure we were the least out of all. Our class was the class that didn't exactly focus on choral speaking, we didn't have much practice, and even out of that, suddenly in the middle my friend asked me to ~~take over~~ her job as a conductor. Since SSC didn't have Choral Speaking, therefore i'm not quite experienced, it was when i entered Sri Aman only i knew Choral Speaking. Anyhow, i just tried my best. While drawing lots, i had to pick the paper with the number 1 on it. Scared at the starting, but actually glad we went first. I forgot a little, and my class laughed a little here and there, but all in all it was okay. I don't expect to win, but yeah, i'm rather satisfied with the performance. Mai and Een's class got 1st placing. They were good, yeah. Neesha's class got 2nd, and i think Sc got 3rd. Mira got the Best Conductor Award, when all week long she was complaining of how bad she was. You should really see Shabina conducting. It was seriously funny, but then she got like 2nd place for the Best Conductor Award. Haha, congratulations to all.

There ought to be at least one teacher who didn't enter into our class this week. It felt good. New timetable's out. I honestly hate it. Well, what can i really do right? And oh, DJ Cooldawgz has a new song, "Let's Play A Game". Hoho, it's actually kinda cool, most of my friends in class couldn't get the song out of their head. During PRS meeting, we got our Baby Angels, alrightt~ After that, we were broken into groups and had to perform a sketch. my group got the topic of ~~bullying~~. When the first question of, "So who's gonna be the bully?", everyone looked at me straight in the eye. Okay whatever, but then while i was playing the part, people were all shouting things like, "She's not acting, that's who she really is" "She does that to me" "I bet she's enjoying this" and more. Hah, good to know my friends think i'm that of a gangsta.

Cheer practice this week was good, yeah, surprisingly. We were so happy, it was progressive and fun. HAHA, though when i came back i got really emo. Yeah. I went on GivesMeHope, hoping to cheer up, but no, not really. I think i must be really heartless, cause i didn't feel anything while reading most of the stories. I went ahead to SixBillionSecrets then. Yes, that was the site i had to read at the moment. It was so sad, some of them turning out to be quite relevant to life, mine, that is. I just felt like helping them, you know? To tell them a million of things that would make them feel like they own a place in this world. That everyone exists for something, and everything happens for a reason. Why is it that you're still alive? It's cause each time, you're given another day to live to make a difference in the world.

Flashmob Practice/Party was okay on Friday night. Even if i had to skip my drum class. I actually had trouble finding for transport. My driver drove my mom and grandma, my sister was busy, my dad's driver wasn't exactly working. Then i finally had a ride to school, cause i might be able to follow Neesha or Aisyah from there. But then no, both of them plus Aisyah's mom and my sister too, all didn't pick up a single phone call. It was super annoying. It was raining too, so i was just gambling my luck to go to school. Good enough, Neesha was still there. Most of the D*Starz people were still there, yeah. Funny how i noticed, cheerleaders are annoying. Like, reallly annoying. I should know. No offense or whatsoever, but sometimes you don't exactly have to be perky outside the cheer circle kayh. Speaking of 'no offense', people who always asks "Why do you even say 'no offense', when you're gonna offend them anyway?" Well can i say something? If you actually say that, then what's the point of the existence of it? Seriously, people say "No offense" as a sugar coat on that bad dessert they just gave you. At least they have the courtesy to criticize on something, but at the same time, not meaning to hurt you. Rather than those who just ~~keeps on criticizing you~~. You can't blame society for having something to say other than nice things. You can't possibly expect to get compliments all the way. But yes, there are also people who misuse the word, unconditionally. It can get pretty annoying sometimes. The thing is, you gotta know what to say, when to say. Most important out of all, think before you say.

What's wrong with me? Something is definitely wrong, with, me.

Everyday i'm shufflin;

2011-04-08T19:46:00.007+08:00

HI EVERYONE! Hehehehe so imma update a lot tonight

Madinah, Mekah; 9th - 20th

The trip was really good, Alhamdulillah. It was ~~relaxing and non stressing~~, and actually fun in certain ways. Sometimes i even miss it. Anyhow, i still feel super lucky.

School; 21st - 31st

Missed out on a lot, but it was good to be back. I was jet-lagged for a few days. Merentas Desa was that Saturday itself. I didn't even practice road run this year, but i just told myself to keep on going, it wasn't that bad, i completed the route 2 minutes less than last year. Got the red card, i think i got around number 30 more or less. Ok la tu.

Cheer; 22nd - 31st

Teacher told us we were gonna join SOX on Tuesday, 22nd, when SOX was on the 3rd. Well, not exactly told, but divided us into groups. I was in Neesha's team, D*Starz Team A ;) Woohooo~ So yeah, we stayed back everyday till the competition weekend. We even spent our Sunday morning at school. But oh, we didn't stayback on Friday, but whatever. Coaching days, every week they just get more and more mad at us, it's so scary, yeh.

Nationals; 1st - 2nd

As i got busier with school, cheer and sport's day, i definitely didn't leave out skating, especially when Nationals was so near. I practically went to practice everyday. I felt kinda weird cause even when i didn't do properly or whatsoever, my coach didn't scold neither did she scream at me like my previous programs. All in all, it was okay. I had that unsatisfied feeling after i did my program. Well, what to do, i watched the video, and i was like, "Whaaattt, realllyy?" I screwed both of my spread eagles, ugh. K whatever. I was actually untying my shoe when the results came out, i thought it was gonna come out later than that, probably even the next day, but no, suddenly, some were crying, and some even congratulated me when i didn't even know what i got. Happy to say, i got 1st place. Alhamdulillah, though i can't really describe what i felt at that moment, partially also because i can't really remember hahaha ok.

Went to the closing ceremony the next day, proud a bit. I kinda thought we weren't gonna use skates, so i left it in the car, we were rushing anyway. Turned out, i looked so -_-" with my shoe only, by the time my skates came, it was almost my turn to go up. I quickly wore my skates and went back in. Received my trophy and certificate, i was ecstatic. Proud to say, all of my coach's students got a placing, therefore everyone won a trophy. After the ceremony, we went for the closing dinner, it was alrightt, but as usual, i had to go home early. Can't really say home, i went straight to SOX.

ICC; 2nd

Remember how i was in Pokerface in o9? And then we evolved to Blackjack in 1o? Well yeah, this is the first year i'm not performing, it's really sad, especially during the starting of the year. But then i started to get over it, and since i have so much on the same weekend, i didn't let it bother me. Well, i did miss the concert, but of course i watched the performances's videos. Hmm, honestly, yeah everyone kinda stepped up their game, but i personally felt like this year, all the groups had a lot of popping, compared to variety of dances. Not sure on the judging system, though i'm not saying that they don't deserve it, it's just that sometimes, there are other better groups. I'm just saying though, through what i saw in the video, but i wasn't there to observe, so it might be different. Infinity from Sri Aman was good, yeah. Job well done! At school i asked everyone how ICC was, and somehow everyone answered the same thing, which was "Okay la, last year's was better". I'm just like o.0 cool.

SOX; 2nd - 3rd

Saturday, we met at school, then took a bus to Rakan Muda. Funky Fresh Family's place there all mmm~ Yeah, first day D*Starz seemed to be the only team not really caring about our image, instead focused on having fun. It was alright, yeah. I had to go at 3.30 for National's Closing Ceremony, then i came back at night, around 8.30. They were all having dinner while watching the performances, which one happened to be Wakaka Crew ♥ They seemed super tired too, so everyone went back to their rooms, changed to their pyjamas and lepak-ed in our room. I don't really know what they did, cause i was just unpacking and showering.

Woke up early Sunday morning, got ready, changed our plans a few times. D*Starz helped Baby Starz get ready cause they were the 3rd to perform. Team B was 9th and Team A was 11th. I helped out with the make up, in the end, i was the only one without make up -_-" Yeahh, after skirt measuring yada yada went back to room, went back down, just in time to watch B*Starz, though we missed Vulcanz, oh well. B*Starz was actually good, i was proud of them, they're so spirited! Watched all the other teams perform, then after lunch my mom and sister came, and after that was both D*Starz's turn. I think we did okay, really. Good enough, to be on the Top 8 list. Out of 3 teams from Sri Aman that was sent to compete, 2 got into top 8. We had to battle with another team. Team A had to battle with Vulcanz and we were like mmmmm~ Team B battled with Hotshots. Unfortunately, we both lost the battle. But i gotta say, Vulcanz were really good, they deserved it. I was sad for certain reasons, but i guess it was a wake up call to all of us. Though the judges agreed that we were just 'under-rehearsed'. Well yeah, we only started like 10 days before dude. Went back to our room, packed and ready to go. I went back to Neesha's house. Lepakzzz jerzz.

Post-SOX; 3rd - 4th

Everyone planned to not go to school the next day, pfft. Miza, Neesha and i were telling them how it's bad, and later the teachers will blame it on Cheer, and then we'll get in trouble and bla bla bla. The next day, Neesha didn't come -_-" SLAP HER FACE. A lot of people didn't come, so i had to find my own transport to gym. Dah la i reached gym at 2.40, my maggi came at 2.50, Lay Mun, Chi Yen, Wen Li and Puteri all left me cause suddenly Mr Chong came early. Had to finish my Maggi withing 10 minutes, and i burnt my tongue. Wonderful. Only 6 people were at gym. Lay Mun sprained her ankle doing aerial. I used to not fail my handstand bridge at all, but then there was a period of time where i lost it, and now i think i'm kinda gaining it back. By hook or by crook, everyone gotta get their walkover cause it's in the routine brah. And oh! hikhik, i have a new goal for April ;)

School; 4th - 8th

Stressed over homework, especially overdue ones. Some even since the holiday. Haihh, but some of the days i forced myself to finish them, and i also forced myself not to sleep in class anymore. Well, progressing haha. I feel more free this week, and it feels weird, haha really. E-Suria asked me to go to Section 7, okay no, i want to go to the Section 9 one puhh-leaasee, So i'm like kinda mad with them, so imma stop going there. Bomba was kinda fun this week, haha cause like it was half an hour of Lydia talking, then half an hour of us talking, and then we were dismissed half an hour earlier, cool story bro. But we're so excited, going to Skytrex tomorrow~ oooo. With Neesha, Karyna, Aisyah, Mira, Azraa and Nad Habil hehe. Gonna go back from there, cause it's like near my house woohooo, then straight to Bieber Flashmob practice. Which, we're obviously forced to go, even though we have school -_-" Aisyah, Neesha and i are mad at them for some stuff. So yeahh, whatever laa. Better not keep the tension inside of us.

Talya sprained her ankle during Tuesday's practice. Jenny fell down on her neck/head/back. Everyone's getting injured ;(

I've got no photos from the other events ;(

No, i won't let go;

2011-03-08T22:42:00.006+08:00

I realise that i blog whenever i feel down

The Mummy Ride in USS ;)

It's a Tuesday night, i'm leaving for Umrah tomorrow afternoon. Gotta say, i'm pretty scared, but at the same time, really can't wait. A part of me asks myself to take this as a ~~holiday~~, so i will. A lot of things happened today, finally got all of my papers. Not that satisfying, though i didn't exactly bother much. Went to Cheer instead of Lit, and then well, that was pretty stressful as well. Then, had Green House. After that, i was supposed to go skating, but then my driver/maids forgot to put my skating bag in the car, so yeahh. I WAS LIKE WTF ARE YOU SERIOUS?! I was freaking pissed off and stressed that time. I couldn't shift my class, so i had to use the public skates for about 40 minutes, a waste of time. It really ~~sucks~~, and it hurts! Really disgusting too, ughhh. Came home, showered, and had dinner with my parents. At that point, my level of stress was beyond of what i could handle. Luckily enough, my parents kinda cheered me up ♥ I don't know, but i think i'm experiencing way more stress compared to a normal 15 year old. Nowadays, the ability to choose gets narrower, and sometimes you just really gotta do it all.

I FEEL THAT LATELY EVERYBODY'S JUST A FUUCKING SHOW-OFF

YOU MIGHT SAY THAT I DO IT TOO,

BUT SERIOUSLY,

IF I'D REALLY DONE IT,

YOU GUYS WOULD BE SPEECHLESS.

ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.

I MUST BE A FUUCKING GOOD ACTOR,

FOR ALL OF YOU NOT TO KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING INSIDE.

Before i forget,

Happy 100th International Women's Day!

Just in the midst of keeping calm and carrying on

So who won the war;

2011-03-04T21:08:00.005+08:00

New York Grayline, Green Coat, and Sleigh.

This was the dinner i had before/when i found out my PMR results. The picture taken was before i guess, explains my face? Okay, not sure.

This picture is just too cool, hehe i took it, duhhh~

At my open house with Kay and Izzy. Miss them ;(

Them friends at my open house ;)

At Cheer Jam, we played the tangled/doctor game. We didn't want to give up for so long, we were the last one to go for lunch. But haha in the end we gave up anyway. I personally think that there was something wrong with our group's puzzle, cause usually i'd know how to solve it o.0

Here are some pictures that i have in my Mac that i may have or haven't put here, so yeah. This practically reminds me of all the things i used to do. Honestly, i don't know what i've become. I'm actually typing at a very non-feeling way. Heck, i can't even think of what to write.

I know i've been super busy this year, yes i get that. Life has been pretty hectic, with everything, and everyone. Don't even get me started on my studies. I really feel like everyone else is getting smarter and i'm the only one getting ~~dumber~~. Once i even felt like i didn't belong in SA.

The same cycle goes each year, the Form 4's will totally be ~~life shocked~~. I don't like to regret things and keep on looking back at the past. Things always have reasons for happening. I wouldn't say that i'd rather repeat Form 3 again, cause please, it's been a really fun year, but why would you wanna do the same thing again?

I don't even have time to go out with my friends, or to celebrate their birthdays, or to really catch-up since we've been missing out on a lot. Do you know how sad that is? And yeah, it's a weekly routine, this person has this that person has that. Sometimes when it's too bad we only wait for the holidays ;(

I have Nationals in April which i don't even have my program yet whereas majority of the people had theirs in January. I'm going to Umrah in a few days. D*Starz is probably gonna compete in SOX. SOX, Nationals, ICC and Disney on Ice are all on the same weekend. Then there's National Youth Day, PRS camp, Mid-Year's, Sport's Day, Cheer Camp, Cheer 11, AGM for everything and so on. It's a never ending journey that i can't give up. I don't like to say "I can't wait for ____" cause then time will pass and then you'll realise that you could've actually done a lot within that time period.

Hmmm, okay. I really just had a bad day. Since morning. From ~~results~~, to ~~getting hit a few times~~ in the hockey match (but still managed to score 2 out of 3 goals for my team), to getting scolded by my mom and every other tiny thing. So stressed of my life, but just gotta go through with it. Sometimes i wonder, "Why me?" to one of the little things that happened. Then again, i gotta accept it and move on.

Thought wanted to make this as short as possible

How far we've come;

2011-03-01T15:57:00.005+08:00

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?"

En Famille; 2o1o

I'm supposed to be studying now, cause like i have Physics, Add Maths and Maths paper tomorrow, but i'm still blogging now. You know why? Cause i'm supposed to be skating rn, but no, my coach is ~~sick~~. Yeah, i'm never gonna get to do my program like this. Nationals is exactly a month away. Not mentioning that i'm going away next week for 10 days for Umrah.

Anyway, i usually don't study for Maths, but i'm beginning to think that i really have to starting from now. My brain isn't that fast as it used to be, especially with Add Maths. I mean like, hey! i like Add Maths better than Mod Maths. But i really have a feeling my teacher hates me.

I haven't updated in a really long time, and i suddenly choose to update now? Pfft, such time management. Yesterday we had Agama, Chemistry and English. Gotta say, i hate this feeling of unsatisfactory i have at the end of the day. Today started off with Accounts, which honestly, i only started reading it this morning in the car. Sejarah started off fine, but then became such a murderer. BM was the last paper for the day and it was tiring, my hand didn't stop. We only had an hour for quite a number of questions. I was mentally exhausted after that. I brought my Add Maths books and Physics, thought of studying during the free period. But no, Nadd, Aisyah, Farah and i ended up gossiping the whole time the people in the hall were stressing for Bio ;) i think practically everyone's name came up, haeuhaeuh.

~~March~~ test ends tomorrow! Gonna watch my movies dawg~

Okay, i added all my pictures from my December 2010 trip ♥ Click!

First, i was just kicking.

The next thing i knew, Jack's batteries were on the ground

When the gap between my posts are far apart, it says that i'm too busy to update. Though even when i update, i'd still miss out on those few days. So yeah, sorry ;\

You're just full of it

Cause i try too hard, and it's a waste of my time;

2011-02-11T23:15:00.007+08:00

Help me, please.

I'm just so freaking ~~stressed~~ today.

AliahMom

*a film advertisement came on tv*

Ma, you know like if i were to do film ryte, the thing i'm scared of is that cause you know, Malaysian film like what only. So like if i were to do movies here or anything cam -_-" And you know i really don't want to go to US. If my friends ask also, i would definitely say no, but it got me thinking laa, that the films there are like, good. I mean, if London, British movies, people probably just watch because of the beautiful people, other than that, not really.

Eyy no no i don't want you to go to US. Haiiiyyaaaa don't la study/do all these movies all. Tak dapat duit/ not good

Yea everyone wants me to go everywhere! Wants me to do all sorts of things! BUT THEY NEVER WANT TO ASK ME WHAT I WANT TO DO.

*speechless*

Please don't judge at this exact moment, thinking you know what i want to do. You don't even know me. Don't go judging my future.

I've so much to tell, but you know, as you grow older, things get more complicated, more secretive. The more i'd like to say, the more i can't. Even if the ones i can spill, i'd be lazy or too out of the mood to write them all down. Heck, it's not like anybody comes here anymore. Still, i won't really let the cat out of the bag.

Random Fact

I think a lot, i'll wonder around and start asking myself questions, for instance;

You know those people who died in the war last time or during the jajahan time? What if they were still alive? Who knows, one of them might turn out to be someone really great, a superstar maybe? One of them could've been the greatest thief anyone could ask for, or one of them could've been the one to put Malaysia in a really high position in the world. And again, who knows? One of their grandchildren could've been our best friend. One of their nieces could've been the first one to create something different. But no, we don't have them right now. Cause they were killed a long time ago, therefore, generation stopped.

You know how these days, people get really excited over a text from the person they really like, and really disappointed if that person doesn't reply? Well yeah, funny how when Alexander Graham Bell invented the telephone, it was so that everyone could communicate better and easier. Nowadays, ~~teenagers~~ feel like killing themselves when they send a risky message and don't get an instant reply. They'll get all panic. But if the other person replies, they would immediately switch to another attitude, being all happy and hyper. By looking at a screen after the sound goes off. By reading something that was sent through the telephone lines. Which now, people have kezillion of phones, different types too, all competing to have the latest branded ones. Can you imagine what would happen if Alexander G. Bell died before he could invent the telephone?

I don't know, i mean like, everything happens for a reason. If it's not this person, it's another guy. I shall not question life any further.

Since when did everything become a problem?

Everyone has their story;

2011-02-06T18:39:00.003+08:00

JUST EXCITED,

THAT IS ALL.

We're gonna start our real game tomorrow onwards

Okay, i'm ready.

Super excited

Thought about it all night;

2011-02-05T22:17:00.006+08:00

Here's how my holiday went;

S4TURD4Y

Had to go to school cause of PRS interview. My partner was Een, and as i predicted, she overslept and came late. Hahah. We interviewed 2 people and the whole interview ended around 9.30 instead of 12. So we had to like, do stuff with the probies. Basically Mai and i were the only ones entertaining them, games after games. Well, and a little bit of others. At the same time, Katty had to go to MIB for ICC Audition. It was kinda depressing, my first year not auditioning ;( But what to do~ I came back late in the end anyway, around 1. It's good that i actually got to know some of the probies. Dinner was supposed to be like normal, but suddenly brothers' car got a flat tire. And my dad had to go help them. In the end, it was just us girls having Japanese at Shah Alam Mall. I wanted to buy movies, but my mom gave me only enough for 1. What even.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY,

BRYAN YONG PAK MING!

29o111

SUND4Y

Went to my grandmother's house for a gathering with everyone. We were the first to arrive. Ughh, spent such a long time there. My cousins have all grown ;)

MOND4Y

Woke up to get ready for my piano lesson. My teacher should seriously stop talking to me while i'm playing, it's really distracting, and i have to start again. Anyway, after that, i got ready, picked up Neesha, then went to Pyramid cause i had class. Neesha just said that she was gonna watch me, while What'sApp-ing with Kay cause i was before i fetched her. I reached at 11.30, then suddenly she wanted to skate, so i was kinda excited, and asked her to skate along. During my warm up, i kind of took it for granted and just told Neesha my luggage combination out loud. Wore my skates, and went inside at nearly 12. I don't remember if i locked my bag or not. Had my class and everything, whoaa, everything kind of sucked. At 1, i came out to rest after my class. Suddenly i found my luggage lying on the floor and my bag out of it. I panicked a bit, but just thought that maybe, my bag fell and opened. I asked Neesha to check my bag if everything was there, she said it wasn't. I kind of believed her, really. I tried not to panic at first, just trying to find it, but really, who was i kidding. After finding everywhere, and calling my sister/ mom, i made a report. They decided to check the CCTV. Then they showed me. I think the thief really wanted to steal, he was waiting for me to go in, cause by 12.02, he already stole both my phone and wallet. So like by 1.30 when i reported, of course he left already. He was smart enough to leave before i came out laa. But damn, i was like really sad. Somehow, i could still not think bout it. Good thing Neesha was there, she saved the day woohooo! Haha, we used like 2 McDonald's coupons for lunch.

After lunch we went to gym for Cheer by the ShuttleBus! Whoooot. So cool okay. While waiting for everyone else, we sat at Rock Corner and gossiped. But i felt like we haven't done that in a long time. Had gym, yeayyyy i think my handstand bridge is progressing. Hikhik. After that, Neesha followed me back haheuaheu. We went online for a while, then went to Shah Alam Mall to cut my hair. Heh, it's okayyy laa. At least i have fringe now! So happy, i didn't cut my hair like really short. Then we ate at Pelita. Pfftt, ingatkan ada orang tu nak datang. But oh well. After that my brother came to fetch me, he didn't know Neesha was with me, he was driving the 2 seater. He ordered Chicken Rice, and pfft what else did Neesha and i do? Orderrr laaaa. Packed home though. In the car the both of us had to squeeze, nice. But we managed to create a little routine. HAHA. Then, we did a 30 minute video. Kinda dull laa, but yeah whatever. She went back, i slept.

TU3SD4Y

Woke up by the sound of phone ringing. It was Jo Ann, i was supposed to meet her at the rink. I didn't exactly know it was still on. And truthfully, i kind of forgot and i was like a little phobia of the rink anyway. I felt super bad, called her so many times and all. I mean, i really wanted to skate with her, it's been so long weyh. So many stories ;) My mom asked me to go to her shop to take pictures of her clothes. Well, just gonna put some here, advertise a bit. Hikhik.

W3DN3SD4Y

Woke up early cause i was supposed to go to Mai's house before Mid Valley cause she said i'd get lost without a phone and never gonna find them. Hahha. Chilled at her house for quite some time before going to the LRT station. Met Acap there, damn hasn't seen him in so long. I'm telling you, i miss all of them. During the ride, as usual, not caring bout what people were saying. Got off at Abudullah Hukum and took a taxi from there. Waited for Neesha and Aisyah, and we went to eat. We did normal hangout stuff, but don't know why, we were all so tired that day. And i think cause like only half of us were there, we didn't really know what to do. We didn't even watch a movie or played bowling. We ate a lot laaa. HAHAH. Around 4 Neesha went back and we went round and got more food. Then finally Imran and Faris came, like 4 hours later. They came with like, Alfi and Harris. Then Acap went back. So Mai, Aisyah and i were just hanging out at the closed Food Junction gossiping. I really love doing those rather than stuff. Well, like 50-50 laa. HAHA. The boys came long after and we went bowling. That time dah tak glow in the dark dah. HEHE, sad a bit. The game was sooo funny, starting with our names on the screen to the way we play. I mean, really. HAUEHUEAH. Had a looot of fun. Was supposed to go back to Mai's house, but then my mom kinda complained, so my driver fetched me straight from Mid Valley. I waited at the entrance, and couldn't see my car. Got kinda scared, cause i didn't even have my phone with me. Luckily it came not long after.

THURSD4Y

My dad shouted at us in the morning, cause we were all still sleeping when we were supposed to go to our neighbour's for Chinese New Year celebration. Good food, as usual. Angpow, as usual. HAHA. Came back, and then my mom dragged me to PKNS to get my Umrah stuff. I felt so tired and lazy that day. At night, we went to another house to celebrate CNY.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

May the year of the rabbit bring you luck.

Homg, my sister's year!

Year of the Dragon's next o.0

FRID4Y

Went back kampung. All 7 of us in the Alphard. Went to town like normal, to eat the laksa, cendol and pasembor. But this time we went round a little. But didn't even visit our other normal places =( So bored, i even choreographed some stuff. Mosquitoes attacked me like crazy. Didn't sleep on the bed but on the floor instead.

S4TURD4Y

My dad screamed to everyone cause we were all late to an akad nikah. One of his cousins, getting married. What. Okay, no, imma not say anything. After that, another kenduri, ugh. But it was close to our kampung so Daus and i just walked home. Passed a squished cat/dog/ferret on the way. By 2 we left kampung. Stopped only once, for petrol and food. It was massive jam, and raining too. Switched drivers twice, ended up reaching at 7. 5 hours, A little crazy, jyeah. My maid said my friend called my house phone and invited me to his sister's birthday party. She said he lives in sek. 7. I was really wondering if i ever had a friend in Shah Alam whose sister i know, and coming birthday. Went to Shah Alam Mall for dinner. Not everyone was present though. When it's just us girls, it's very slow and relaxed, or else, the boys tend to rush us. Here i am now. Found out that the guy who called my house twice, was Acap. I think he meant SS 7 HAUEHAEUHEA. Imma go skating with Jo Ann tomorrow! But i'm not even gonna go to the Bandung students celebration cause i gotta finish up my homework and all.

Gotta sleep early, gonna edit more another day.

Minus 5;

2011-01-29T00:08:00.007+08:00

My blog's not dead, and neither am i

Skate Bandung

Skate Bandung was okay. Well no, actually it was like really fun. Haha glad i went and got experience. Out of 5 events, i managed to get 3 Gold, 1 Silver and a 4th place. I just have to be grateful about it though i'm not satisfied at all.

Artistic

Couples 1

Solo Compulsory

Freestyle

Interpretive

Week

Reached LCCT and realised that i was picked up from there twice within 20 days. Came back to ~~school~~, and suddenly there were a lot i had to catch up on, i really felt like crying cause i was super busy. I literally had no time to rest. On Tuesday, as usual Literature interfered with Cheer, of course i had to pick Lit. Apparently teacher didn't let us out early, so we missed the whole practice, and coach was there. Audition's on Thursday. Went to green house, helped Sarah with Senamrobik, got some ideas hehe. Ugh, rumors of house cheer being banned. Stupid. Bomba on Wednesday, yeah. Oh! Did i tell you i go to outside tuition now? Yeah haha for Accounts only, at E-Suria, and the first class, guess what? I met my past. Nais.

D*Starz audition on Thursday. After like a week? Of not going i was kinda rusty. Really hope i get it. After Cheer, Neesha and i went to Charm. It was fun, hehehe. Did toss o.0 So proud. Neesha flew for toss! Ugh, Jo Ann was supposed to come okay! Came back, super tired, but still managed to go online. At school the next day, could barely keep my eyes open.

Holidays

Oh yes, CNY holidays have started! I went to Kokopelli just now for Nik Aishah's Farewell Party. So glad i went, it was like so sad okay. It didn't really hit me while i was there. In the car after, i was totally burning up inside, cause i realised of how much i totally miss last year, and how 2011 is practically getting on everyone's nerves. It's just really ~~depressing~~, you know.

GOODBYE,

NIK AISHAH!

(she's the one in the green cardigan)

28o111

AliahDaus

Come Aliah, let's watch a movie!

I got tuition in 5 minutes

Cikgu dah bersalin la!

HAH WHAT?!

Yeaahhh, just now

Serious?!

Mama told me

Hoddayyymnnn, so she's not coming, is she?

Eh no la Aliah, memang la she's coming now -_-" With her glucose and everything.

Well, there goes my March Test

CONGRATZ TEACHER!

IT'S A GIRL!

I told you when you asked, i knew this wouldn't last

Half mask;

2011-01-16T18:32:00.003+08:00

Skate Bandung 2011

Friday, 21st

Artistic 5.55 pm

Couples 1 9 pm

Saturday, 22nd

Solo Compulsory 11.12 am

Freestyle 6.10 pm

Interpretive 7.10 pm

I'm so freaking scared. Please pray that i'll do fine.

5 Gold Medals, please.

Competitions

I'm taking back what's mine;

2011-01-13T21:53:00.006+08:00

Pn. Alainal's Retirement Dinner; October 2010

Showdown July 2010; Sri Aman. With Floor Fever.

Interact Charity Concert March 2010

People have been asking me about,

BLACKJACK.

I'd go speechless every time.

Well, here's the thing.

I ain't dancin' this year kayh?

We ain't dancin'

But i assure you we'll be back next year,

better. ~~than~~. ever.

Really.

One more time.

Out of the limelight;

2011-01-05T18:02:00.002+08:00

Okay, so like these 2 are dating,

at least i just hope they are.

I don't know,

they seem cute.

And unlike other people,

i actually like Selena

and this might be good for her?

Hmm, cause she's been out of the spotlight lately.

Pity her okayh.

And these 2 are even more confirmed dating.

My first thought was "Haha, Joe's next victim"

Someone even posted 'Joe-serial-dater-Jonas'

But then when i really think bout it

They actually look mature together

And it looks as if it'll last.

Just sayin.

Gasp, i don't even know why i'm posting this.

I used to hate both JB's

I think i still do.

And a rumor's going on that Zac and Vanessa are back together.

That's all folks

A loss for words;

2011-01-05T10:35:00.004+08:00

Making it short,

New York was undeniably awesome;

Paris was expensive yet persuasive;

and

London was wonderful but still not enough time.

All in all, i had a really wonderful vacation.

Glad to be back, and can't wait to go back to school tomorrow.

Everyone seems to be complaining bout it.

Oh well.

Missed 3 days of school

Something good's coming up;

2010-12-13T16:00:00.007+08:00

So much to do, so little time

Results;

is said to come out in 10 days

But you know what? I think i'm really just trying to escape all these hecticness and stressness of knowing what my results are gonna be. During the PMR period, i thought i could do it. Now, after so long of not studying anymore and all, i feel rather stupid and starting to question myself. I mean like, i'm not even gonna be here to collect. What if, the call doesn't give me good news? But what if it does? It's in 10 days, A week and a half. By now, they ought to be drawing the graph already or even giving everyone grades. It's set.

I ain't gonna cry just thinking bout it, no. But i do feel the pressure on me. So many reasons why i have to get straight A's. Everyone's always saying i'll get it, no questions. I've been through this before, why again now? I do realise though, that whatever happens, this is not the end. The journey's still on, for sure. So never think that all your time and effort has wasted, cause that's just really ~~stupid~~.

London, New York, Paris;

we'll meet in 6 days

Homg, i'm so excited for our trip. But i just hope that my sister gets her Visa done in time, my mom wan't nag as much, i get to see Kay, and we'll really enjoy our safe holiday. I've wanted to go to New York, since like ever. Seriously. I'm finally going, so that's big. My family once went to Paris without me, i was really small. Oh well, at least now i get to see and understand the place properly. Despite the really cold weather, insyaAllah everything else will be okay.

Imma shop, go sightseeing and everything like damnnn, till i won't even remember that it's gonna be a whole new year, another decade, and that school's starting.

Cheer Jam;

is in 2 days

Though the form is supposed to be sent in by 30th November, i just filled it out last Saturday, the 11th. Huaheuh, nais. Well, imma go to the camp, and hopefully learn a lot, not waste my money, and actually improve. Hope to make a lot of new friends too. Cheer friends, hoho.

Yesterday, today and tomorrow;

~~Melbourne people~~ came back yesterday, though they were on different flights. Out of all things, can you imagine, Faris forgot his luggage. He is just homg, speechless. Good thing my other brother saw and brought it or something. We went to PKNS for lunch at Satay Samuri together, without our dad, damnn it was so noisy and cool. Good to have everyone here ♥ haha. i slept close to 3 yesterday, usually i'd just sleep around 2, but yeah.

Woke up at 12+, i don't think i've ever woken up that late during the holidays before, hauehea. Ate lunch, and just watched TV. My brother started to watch Toy Story 3 with me, and suddenly he left. Still not back yet. Oh well, i'll just blog. Before i get all busy and stuff. I think imma start packing today. Sort of in the mood anyway.

Tomorrow, imma go skating one last time, practice perfectly and stuff. But i'm scared i might get injured before ?~~Cheer Jam~~ o.0 Then i think imma just try and get experience or luck and go for Lat The Musical's casting at Istana Budaya. I was really excited when i heard bout it, but after i told my mom, she reminded me that i was gonna go to Umrah in March next year, and then i had less spirit. I'm also afraid that i might have so much on my hands. But opportunity, just grab it. I let go of one once, and i thought it might come again, fat chance, it sailed away. So yeah. Besides next year would be like the last year for me to do everything. Soon it's SPM, and then off to college i go. I have my list to complete.

Not much today

Please don't be in love with someone else;

2010-12-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

I miss dancing,

capiche?

You see me waiting for you at the corner of the street

We're dancing like we're young;

2010-11-30T17:06:00.007+08:00

When all else fails, i go back to the start, Blogger.

Everything; Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter ughhh. I just really needed to blog today. Just wondering what.

Test, Lagoon, Tuesday, 23rd

So like the other day i had skating in the morning and then at 12 my couple test with Jo Ann. Though we started kinda playful, in the end we passed with rather good marks. After that, i quickly changed and got ready to go to Lagoon with ~~them famous~~. They were supposed to go in the morning but they waited for me, yeayyy. It was such a hot day, and i didn't bring Lex cause i thought Katty was coming. She didn't. Mai and i were the only girls. However, we still had a lot of fun. Well, there were some surprises along the way, heh. Got out of Lagoon before 7 and then went to Pyramid. We got really tired after that, everyone's face screamed "I WANNA GO HOME". All in all, it was a really good yet tiring day.

Skating, Cheer, Pool party, Video, Thursday, 25th

Went skating in the morning, i don't think i did much, cause like haha so lazy to practice anything already. But yeah, i'm currently practicing for Skate Bandung 2011. HEHE. Came back home, then hmm, don't really remember. Anyhhwayhhh, went to Cheer, my driver drove in the car, and then it made quite a noise, i totally forgot they were having ~~SPM~~. Coaches came and all, i really like or want to spot, but then coach seems really keen on putting me as base. So like yeah, haha i based Lissa. So cooooool ;) Power stunt group or what.

Immediately after that, Neesha, Karyna and i changed for Mukhzani's pool party. Fetched Mai and then went to his house. It was just mmm, awkward there? There were so many guys, our girl gang all like not there, so yeah. Stayed for a while, and then went back. At night, Daus wanted to dance and he used my ~~Photo Booth~~, but i was really tired i didn't join him. The video's somehow a little priceless therefore i decided to post it on Facebook. Well i think it reduced everyone's level of SPM stress. So that's good eyy? I was so lazy to pack for Langkawi, i slept early and left everything to my sister.

Packing, Flight, Lunch, Grocery Store, Dinner, Friday, 26th

Was supposed to leave at 10. I didn't even pack yet, and i actually woke up somewhere after 9. My dad bought tickets for Firefly, little did he know it was freaking expensive, like seriously. Rip off. We rented a car when we reached, and drove around Langkawi, trying to find a decent place to eat. My sister and i were like so jakun okay. Haha, but since it was Friday, and Kedah has Friday for an off day, most of the shops were closed. Or probably that might be the laziness of the workers. After lunch before we headed to the resort, we came across a kedai runcit, being such jakun people, we kinda bought a lot of stuff which of course in the end, became sort of useless.

Checked in and got into our rooms. Settled in then my sister and i went swimming, and then to the beach. We were actually there for PEKERTI family day. Though we're not in PEKERTI, my dad's like friends all, yada yada yada golf whatever. I think i went to the same one last year. My dad sat at one table, my mom another, me another. Good thing this year my sister was there. We mistaken the first night to be the formal one, so we dressed up. It was actually just BBQ. After that we kinda freaked out cause we didn't know what to wear to the Gala Dinner.

Golf, Town, Drug Store, Flu, Saturday, 27th

After breakfast, we went round town, while my dad played golf and all yeah. We didn't follow the PEKERTI people. I was already sick before we went to Langkawi. Though that day it seemed worse and i felt weak. My mom and sister were kind addicted to this one medicine shop, like traditional, gamat and all yeah. The Pak Haji or something were just really funny, making them believe they all work. In the end, they bought a lot. Still, we went back there the next day. Went to the spa in the evening and then at night, dinner again. Oh, half of the day i had like serious stomach ache fuuuuu.

Stomach ache, Flu, Town, Flight back, Sunday, 28th

STOMACH ACHE ~~STOMACH ACHE~~, blardee heyll. Plus flu, wonderful. Went to town again, bought stuff and went to a few duty free shops, yeah. Came back, reached at night, and then just online the whole way. Somehow i just really missed some people. HEHE.

Skating, Movie, Gym, Relative's house, Monday, 29th

Went skating in the morning, though i think i only spent like an hour in the rink, but it was satisfying. Then we had brunch and watched movie. Jo Ann and i wanted to watch Rapunzel at first, but the screening times were like -_-" Therefore we watched Harry Potter, again. The both of us. HAHA, that time i really focused, though i still had a little of the stomach ache. After the movie, we went back, well no. Jo Ann sent me to gym and she went back haha. While i was carrying my luggage out of their car, my phone dropped under the car, it was really far, and wet, so difficult to take okayy. So yeah, just chilled at ~~Rock Cafe~~ for a while and then the others came. While warming up, coach saw my luggage and asked "Wahh, who's running away?!" I didn't admit that it was mine. When i finally thought i was gonna go home, my mom decided to visit my uncle who just came back from Umrah/Haji. Came back late, showered and stuff, then i immediately had mengaji. Cause like, jyou knoww my ustat doesn't really come often.

Skating, Brunch, Resting, Aching, Tuesday, 30th

Skating. Did programs. Body aching. Want to die a bit. Oh, there were some people i don't know where to categorize them under. They wore caps and supras, dancing outside the rink there. First, salah tempat la serious please. Second, usually it's okay for dancers to wear supras, but when they wore it even when they danced, it looked undeniably rempit. Dah la jatuh masa dance. Fail.

AliahMommy

Come follow me to my shop

HAH no laaa. I want to rest

What have you been doing since just now?

Well i came back, and slept for a while, then watched tv.

That's not resting isit?!

Nooooo

Wow, it's been a really long time since i actually put in dialogues here, hehe. Oh, guess what? I have skating everyday for this week. Joy. No sleeping in ugggghhh.

Koffee, maow

I have Skype 5.0, yes i do

A part of my MSN contact list. My friends, wow.

Gangland up at 3 am/pm talking bout parenthood

Love this

Tomorrow is ~~December~~

"Results results results results!"

FFFUUUUUUUU

My November

We will be alright;

2010-11-21T12:05:00.005+08:00

A letter to fellow people, future relationships, past relationships, etc.

Do you remember the time when we were really disgusted to even sit beside guys? Before everything became a problem? Well yeah now at this point of age, everybody's trying to chase love, i'm not entirely sure if it's a bad thing or what, but this will not stop till forever. I myself have witnessed many types of cases. Though last time i even had that thought in my head where, at the first stage, there's the 'trying to get them', 'talking, flirting', and the 'fling'. Second stage being the couple. I mean, then what? No offense to anyone, this is just what i personally think, yeah, after all the excitement, and then you finally get that person, then what? Some people would actually take advantage of that, knowing that it's already safe for them. Though like every relationship, it has to end. Basically, you spend such a long time trying to get them, then during the relationship, it doesn't last, you break up and then that's it. I really don't know how anyone would feel towards that.

To current strong staying relationships, stay. Do not take advantage, and always fight your battles together. To past relationships, it's sad to know it, but try to fix things nicely. Probably there's more to come to life. To future relationships, be careful. Just know what you'll be in for. Try to work things out, whatever it is, make sure your happiness is in the picture.

I know somehow this seems irrelevant to my life or whatsoever, but i hate to witness sad stories. It is true that another person's gain is another person's loss. And sometimes i even think of condemning my own happiness and such just for others.

I think all of these are actually frightening me from going deep into one. Trust me, if i have that nervous feeling about that certain someone for quite some time, all i'm looking for is for that person to actually give my heart a kick. I don't really find it depressing or sad, instead relived. Probably at first sad, but then no more. I feel that i'm scared to face whatever coming my way. I'm forever scared, forever a coward, and forever not daring to take a risk. I respect all you daring people, really.

To all the heartbroken yet wonderful people, just know that everything happens for a reason, and always think positive. Probably that certain someone right for you is really near, and those other heartbreakers were just stops along the journey. Know that you'll always be loved by at least 2 people in the world, that you have hope. Don't let a minor thing take control over you. Be your own person, a stronger one. Always know that there are people supporting you ♥

I recently found out about two love stories. One that is at the end of the chapter of the book. It's just the matter of, would they like to continue to another book? Another is that they're currently in the middle of the story, where all the excitement, confusion and whatnot happens, the climax, and the downfall. I really pity them, especially since i found out one of them by myself. So i was right. I'm here for you guys, and if your partner doesn't love you as much as you love them back, it's okay. I still love you guys ♥ At least that's one person, eyh?

There's something about the way he stares. Do remember that this is acting, though. And don't forget that there are real life stories too.

P.S. I know i'm not one to talk, since i've never had experience or whatsoever. But i've witnessed so much, and indeed every time i get more scared. Probably you don't need someone who has been in relationships to help you out. You might need someone with a different mindset.

Thanks for reading =)

♥ Aliah Zaini

Do not hate me for this

The end begins;

2010-11-21T11:10:00.007+08:00

Miss blogging

Some people learn to dance,

others were born to.

Watched Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows on Thursday the other day at OU with Acap, Mai, Katty and Imran. I reached OU earlier than the rest cause suddenly i had some sort of transport problem at home, yeah. I kinda walked around the whole of OU by myself for an hour, felt kinda nice though. Katty, Imran and i went into the cinema late cause we were lining up to buy food and stuff cause Imran wanted -_-" Hehe though in the movie everyone was just freaking hungry. Missed the starting, and throughout the movie it was kinda funny, we were just laughing to ourselves, some not actually about the movie. I needed to pee so badly too. Rushed to school immediately after. I ran into my car, changed and got ready in the car itself and went to school for Cheer.

Why is it that everyone loves Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays so much? Why does everyone hate ~~Wednesdays or Friday~~? Pfft, really. My schedule's pretty tight, and usually Tuesdays and Thursdays are the full ones meanwhile ~~Wednesday's~~ empty. I already bought 2011 calendar, ready to fill in. Supposed to go to Melbourne on the 3rd. Langkawi probably this Friday. Might not go to both. I have a test this weekend, and suddenly we didn't think we needed to go to Melbourne. I don't know, i'm just like, seriously busy. Wow, going to New York soon, hehe can't wait ♥

Rating 4.5 though it might not be accurate. I didn't ~~exactly focus~~ cause a lot went through my mind. But i felt like it was less than i expected. They didn't exactly do anything much. It was cool though, made me want to watch from the 1st movie again. So yeah. I don't think i have anything in my mind to complain about. Oh wait, yeah there's one. There was a part where they ran in the woods, it sort of looked like Twilight, so yeaahh.

Rating 3.6. I freaking hate movies that you can't actually hear the actors talking. Please do not whisper, ughh. What's the point then? Yeah, i bought the disc, it wasn't even clear and the subtitles sucked. Of course that's not a part of the movie's fault, still. Didn't really understand, in the end, i just assumed the movie to be what i understood it from. Basically, the freaking box is just a really dumb box that they actually plant some weird mind threat thing.

Added photos onto my wall

I just love this picture of them

At Mai's sister's wedding

There was a freaking snake at my house. My guard killed it, though the tail was still twitching.

Pyramid with em famous.

Not done yet, hoho

We're like fire and rain;

2010-11-15T18:59:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 52nd BIRTHDAY,

MAMA!

281o1o

You're my mother, and i love you

and yes, don't be angry at us for no reason sometimes,

we're sorry for everything

and thanks ♥

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY,

SISTER!

o9111o

Thanks for everything you've done for me, i can't really imagine how different i'd be if you weren't here. Thanks for sprucing up my life, hehe. There are more to say, but i'd rather not. Sorry for anything and i love you. Feels weird saying it, but oh well ♥

The movie was just hot. Okay, like so much sex appeal. Rating 4.7. It was very creative, and i really love how they connected all 3 movies with relations. The movie looked fun, and had a lot of dances. Yes, as time goes, the movie becomes more towards the street breakdancing type, but at least it's better than whole-ballet. No offense to anyone, though.

I also love how they focused on 2 kinds of people, like there wasn't any main character. Also how Adam Sevani and Alyson Stoner gets more credit in this movie. The second movie there was a part they danced in the rain. They danced on water in this one, well it was sort of the same concept but still interesting. Good movie, willing to buy in Blu-ray though i have the normal one.

Camp Rock returns! Didn't watch it when it came out cause i did something on my birthday. Similar to HSM, i always don't get how the nerdy shy girl totally transforms into Ms All That in the second movie, i mean seriously? Mitchie got/ did everything. If i were one of the campers, i'd totally hate her, just sayin. A few songs were good. Suddenly i was attracted to Nick Jonas, the one that i never thought was a problem. Rating 3.7.

Wanna make you feel like i'm the only one in the world

Shivers being put through me;

2010-11-12T18:00:00.005+08:00

Here goes a long post

Tumblr

I have stopped caring about my number of Tumblr followers and unfollowers. Cause honestly, right now i'm just really having fun with my current followers, they're awesome, and i'm having a good time on Tumblr, so i don't give a damn bout the ~~numbers~~ at the side there.

Daily affairs

Went to school cause they had Eco Carnival. At first, Neesha, Mai and i were just walking around wondering what to do. Yeah, we went all over the school. Acap was there, with his school and all, yeah. Bryan didn't come though he said he wanted to -_-" Katty went kinda crazy trying to sell Een's cookies. In the end, i bought like everything that was left so that i could actually sell them at my sister's cafe.

Waited for my sister to come to the cafe, but good thing there was someone there who knew me. The drinks there were made to perfection, and i'm not just saying that. Just hanging out there with Neesha, we even like practiced stunts, and made it look like we were super strong, *haha, guna kasut je sebenarnya*. After that we went to eat at Santai then we were sent to Segi.

Charm was fun, haha really. Laughed a lot, and made new friends, hehe. Saw someone whom we haven't since, hmm let's see, July perhaps? *inside joke*

Haha anyway, kinda lost track of time stunting, so we didn't have to run or ~~jump~~. I came back, and my body was aching. Oh yeah, i got elbowed at my mouth once, ugh injured again. I woke up today, with ~~inconvenient statuses~~, i decided not to do my daily stretch/warm-up off ice thing. Today was ironically weird, like everything was just wrong. Oh well.

Drum

I was supposed to have my drum class for an hour just now at 3. But then my teacher called and ~~cancelled~~. I still have tonight's class though. Wow, it's fine teacher, it's not like i have to replace my class or even actually have a freaking song to practice for a competition next week -_-" Seriously.

Weddings

Going to Mai's sister's wedding tomorrow. Hehe, kinda excited, though not entirely sure on my choice of wardrobe. At night i have another wedding, one that i was personally invited to, with my name on the envelope, from a relative that i didn't even know existed till i recieved the invitation and saw my greatgrandfather's name on it. Ya dig? Yeah, and i also found out that i have to wear their wedding colour as i am one of the usherers, you can say. What is life anymore, huh?

The Girl Next Door; American Crime

Do you guys know who Sylvia Likens is? Well, she was murdered at the age of 16 in 1965. Poor girl, click here to read everything. There's even more than one movie based on this actual event. Knowing this story made me feel so grateful for what i am and what i have. Alhamdulillah.

Harry Potter

Even though i don't read the books,

or i don't really remember the first two movies,

or i'm not their biggest fan,

this picture still makes me tremble.

Photographic updates; cause a picture can paint a thousand words

This picture has won the internet today.

Priceless stuff.

Heh, i find this cool okay.

What's wrong with me, i don't know. I sort of look like i have a unibrow

Killed a mosquito, oh yeah

I think my hair's getting thinner

Oh, wise one

Anticipations, running through me;

2010-11-10T23:58:00.003+08:00

I pick

studying

over

desperately trying to get a guy

at any

day.

I already feel retarded writing something lame

Forever hungry;

2010-11-09T01:33:00.008+08:00

Them famous ♥

Neesha, Kay & Bryan missing.

I'm assholeloving this picture ;)

Some of the photos printed out from the new films;

I lovelovelove this

Some of the first roll from Jack;

i'm still learning

Thusday, wreck.

I went to Cosmo's World with Gangland and GGland the other day, well half anyway. Woke up kinda late so i had to rush. Went to practically all the rides, the roller coaster on its own around 4 times, just to get the picture right. I mean, that's the best part i guess. At 6 Neesha and i went to Segi College for Charm. Met Hui Wei and Karyna there. It was erhh, scary i guess, well at least at first. lkashdjkasbdyashdjn don't really know how to say it. Kinda fun though =) At one point, my lip got cut my braces and it was bleeding, cause the flyer fell on my mouth. NAIS.

Friday, change.

Woke up kinda late, and then i had a really bad craving for popcorn. Was bugging Daus for it. We were supposed to go to OU but then i don't know lah. My dad came back and we went to Subang Parade. Ate, and got popcorn. It was either i go with my dad to KGNS and wait alone as he hit some white balls, or with my brother and his friends, which are mine too -_-" and yeah. I was still craving for popcorn and movie so her just dragged me with him. In the middle, in the car -_-", there were some problems whateverlah, and everybody had their own ideas. In the end, Hadzwan, my brother and i just went to OU. I got my popcorn, woohhoooo! Watched 'Life As We Know It', hmm yeah it was good i guess. Ratings later. After that we immediately rushed to go back cause i was kinda late to my ~~drum class~~. Suddenly in the middle, Hadzwan said, "Bukan harini Deepavali ke?" and then my brother and i felt superdumb for all the stuff we went through.

Yeah, there wasn't any class, but i was sent to Shah Alam Mall for dinner with ze family.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI,

EVERYONE!

o51o1o

Saturday&Sunday, dead.

Followed my mom to KL, then went to Bangsar. For lunch, somehow i wanted to eat at the Banana Leaf place, but sadly it was closed. I was sad, disappointed; Either one. So i just ate at Delicious. Wanted Dim Sum after that, so i thought for dinner, but then wasn't sure if Concorde or any other damn place had Dim Sum at night. In the end, we didn't have ~~Dim Sum~~. We had Japanese -_-" and you know what? The next day was so excited to have Dim Sum for lunch, the damn restaurant 'closes' on Sundays. MAILIFELAHHH. We quickly headed to Quality Hotel. It was the buffet, they sent out everything, and Daus and i did our parts. Heh, even my mom was amazed.

Have been watching a lot of TV lately. Like the other day, watched Jaws, Jaws 2, Rogue. Similarity: ~~human, teeth, blood, water~~. Had to escape from the action, started watching Full House (the old American one, of course) again, hehe family fun! =) So yeah

Didn't go to school today, wait, yesterday. Not going today. Neesha coming to Shah Alam today. Yeayyyy. Ok so yeah. You know, i actually planned some stuff on Sunday. None worked out, i just watched movies the whole day.

Know what's funny? I dance, yeah. I do shows and all. But yet every time i try to follow someone or a routine on Youtube, i'll end up looking real dumb. Trust me.

Too many words

O-o-overrated;

2010-11-03T13:47:00.004+08:00

i just realised the photo says Official Myspace Page.

I hate Bieber,

but he dances so sexily.

Seriously.

I don't know, probably it's just me, attracted to dancers.

The moment they start dancing

they make my heart go knock knock.

HEH GEDDIT?

Lame.

B-Boy Dancin